We all know of the discomfort during our monthly cycles, some have it worse than others, as is this case with me. I have at times been unable to even move during the onset of the "great burden" of the uterus. I have had a little bit of a reprise in the pain department in recent months, thankfully, barely feeling anything at all and then previous to that months where any kind of pain reliever was unable to soothe the dull screaming ache. But, in whatever regards it comes, there is that amazing relief when the contractions give their final push and the blood releases itself into the pad. Somewhat like that feeling when your heart releases a painful burden, going through the days, weeks, months of struggle like monthly contractions and then that final push and release, then, at last, freedom.
I've been thinking a lot lately about the issue of 'release' because I've been finding myself in that place. I no longer feel the constant strain of loss, the memories of pain and horror from my marriage, the overwhelming fear of what was coming back, no longer seems threatening even in flashback form.
But, recently, I've been feeling that sense of release, that amazing peace that comes from true healing and freedom. In fact, instead of any feeling of loss or suffering, I now feel myself in a state of 'abundance' and 'prosperity', not merely in a financial state (for that's more gradual) but in all other facets of my understanding of self and identity.
For those of my loved ones and acquaintances in places of struggle and pain, hang in there during the time of contraction, it will pass. Then, more than any sort of joy, there will be peace in that moment of final release. And, life will move forward as never before, forever changed and forever made whole.
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