Now, I know what you are thinking, who makes resolutions these days, I mean, who really keeps them? So, that's why I added "or something like that". It seems like all of us, without consciously thinking about it, tend to rethink our lives around the New Year; pause for self analysis. And, usually we know from childhood, when we actually made resolutions, that they are usually broken, because sometimes they are a little far fetched, or sometimes a little out of the blue, something maybe we haven't already been praying about, meditating on, or pondering over and preparing ourselves for over the past months. And, as you may know, I have been going through a bit of hard spot these past few months, but with diligence and faithfulness and prayer, I have walked myself through it and given much thought to what I need to be healthy. Here are a few:
1.) Put my health first, ie all forms, physical, emotional, mental, spiritual, they all connect in some way. Be more mindful of my health and wellness, and hope against hope that the fragments of my biology, mind, and heart can be mended into a whole, but with patience, peace, and rest in waiting on God; after all, God is not through with me yet.
2.) Get off meds, ie psychotropics (mostly for the healthy babies I want to have), and this might take a couple to a few years, but its a worthy goal, and its one that will take a lot of learning about diet (what goes into the body), the right supplements, diligence to pursue exercise in some way daily, pray, meditate, read the bible every day or more (just, in general, pray more/meditate more, basically retrain your brain to be more mindful and focused.) Make getting healthy your main career. Chart your moods, sleep schedules, diet, exercise.
3.) Be more mindful, in general, of how you behave around others, the words that come out of your mouth; pray that your speech and conduct is seasoned with the holy spirit, a spirit of gentleness.
4.) Be on time, more mindful of your time. Organize your time so you can wake up for work with plenty of time for devotionals, exercise, meditation. Get your sleep cycle under control, with or without the lorezapan.
5.) Be more conscious of your appearance, take better care of your hygiene, ie at night, have a bedtime ritual that includes brushing your teeth, washing your face, and also read some kind of spiritual book or pray or meditate to calm your mind. Try to get your hair trimmed and face waxed once a month. Get to bed at a reasonable time for what your needs are the next day. Eat healthily and regularly, no matter how the meds make you feel or if its that time of the month, etc.
6.) Write every day, do more artistic activities, join a writing group, if possible, and read more. Now, the reading one will be the easiest because no one ever has to tell me to read, all my life I've read multiple books at a time, been a bookworm with my nose almost firmly planted in the pages, devouring the words. But, the writing, well, I must not beat myself up too much if I don't get to it for awhile, but just do my best to accomplish what I can.
Now, that's all I really want to commit to, or just ponder committing, lastly, of course, pray with and for my husband, ask questions and be more attentive to his viewpoints, his work schedule, try not to sound too pushy or controlling or codependent; just be attentive to his needs, as well as mine, and do what I can to make him happy, healthy, and well.
